The word is a very exciting place

Im not sure if its me being a bit drunk, or if its becuase i just listened to Summertime Sadness by Lana Del Ray 40 times, but im in one of those moods where i think anything is possible. im not going to make you read between the lines, im going to come out and say it, yes, i do think about suicide, its the thought that if i did it, i wouldn't have to worry about anything ever again, i wouldn't have to worry about desperatly tidying denim flat pack at work anymore, i wouldn't have to feel so upset and annoyed when everyone tells me they love the new gay guy at work, becuase lets face it, i am gay, but i am not viewed as such, i am viewed as one of the girls, and i don't think people realize how much that hurts, becuase i know that probably i will never b one of the girls. i wouldn't ever have to worry about annoying my parents, or fretting because most of my friends are really thin and a nice height, wheras i am ridiculouly tall and have huge sticky out clown feet.i...