The word is a very exciting place

Wow. I can't believe it's the last post today! I have a bit of news from me, but more after the post. Day 30-One thing you are excited for. One thing? I'm excited about loads of stuff! If I am to say one thing, it is probably planning for my holiday to Bulgaria next October. I'm going to go and get a few quotes next week so I can work out how much I will need and what plans to make. There's quite a lot to do and see in Sofia, so I'm going to have to plan things well so I can see and do everything. It will be the first holiday I have ever organised myself, as well as possibly being the first I go on by myself. So gods knows how it could go! So first of all, Thanks to everyone who has read my blog and followed the 30 day challenge, I've really enjoyed being able to write everyday and to be able to share a bit about myself with you, and also I'm really happy because I logged in today and found my blog has been viewed 1000 times! Thankyou so much everyo...

Eek! It's the penultimate post! Day 29- The night of your 21st birthday. Now this is a sad one. On the actual night of my birthday, I went round Kate's house. We had some pizza, a few drinks, and slouched in front of the tv all night. It sounds boring, but I didn't want to make a big fuss of it, and actually, I really enjoyed spending it with someone I think rocks. And Rosie, Kate's beautiful dog was there, fell asleep on my stomach at about two o'clock. I had a really nice time. We had a little do later that week, me Kim and Sarah for my birthday went to the giddy bridge, had a boozy lunch with a lot of  drinks, and had a bloody good laugh while we were there. There were really kind to me, and had clubbed together with Sandra to get me a mayflower voucher. I'm going to use it to hopefully see Chicago after christmas. Sorry it's only a short post, but I'm on my break and we are about to have our work christmas dinner. I heard there would be a bottl...

Day 28- A word/phrase you use constantly. Now this is an interesting one. I seem to use thing's like "Oh my god" and "What the fuck?" quite a lot. Actually I mean all the time! Now that I try to think of what I actually use all the time, nothing's coming to me. Isn't that bloody typical! I think I'm pretty normal with words otherwise. I say "bloody" a lot, same with "really?" and also "is it?" (The latter in a very sarcastic and narcissistic way). I'l have to update this when I think of some more. But anyway, I've had a very nice evening tonight. I met up with Lucifer for a drink and some dinner at wetherspoons, then went back to his hotel room for a bit. Nothing happened, but we had a good time. Bless he really is a nice guy, and I really enjoy seeing him. On the way home, I brought a tub of ice cream and a scratch card from the co-op, so with any luck I'll be a billionaire by the end of this post. I...

My god is it cold here at the moment. I'm sat in the living room with a jumper and two pairs of trousers, with a throw on top of me, and I'm still bloody freezing. Wish someone would put the heating on Dy 27- What you wore today My god that's brilliant. I didn't even look at today's challenge as I wrote the introduction! Today I am wearing a H&M navy floral kind of top, with grey and black pleather skinny jeans from Zara. Actually I think this is the nicest outfit I own. Well it was nan's birthday dinner so I thought I had better look good for a change. Currently I have a blue granddad jumper and a pair of jogging bottoms, on top. And a green fleece blanket to stop the icicles forming on me. It's one of those thin, but really warm and comfortable blankets that is just the best thing to have on a bed. The meal out was really nice actually. We went to Casa Brasil, a roditizio restaurant in town, and the food was bloody good, even after all the jokes a...

Day 26- Thing's you would say to an ex. There are many things I would like to say, hundreds of questions spring to mind, but one of them really upsets me. What did I do wrong? I feel almost ashamed to think it, because it implies that it was me, that was the reason things went wrong. I mean it probably was me, but it's a horrible way to think of it. At the end of the day, I'm not going to weep and apologize for being the person that I am. It's not going to happen. Also, It mean's that I take full responsibility for everything that ever happened. And quite frankly I'm not going to do that. I can take some responsibility for thing's that happened, but I had my reasons. I know I am not an easy person to get on with, I know I can be selfish, impulsive, brash, and above all, a right cow, but did I deserve everything that was given to me? It's funny, because I tried so hard to please. I really did everything I could to make you happy (And I'm addressin...

Day 25- Four weird trait's you have. Bloody hell this is difficult, I'm having trouble thinking of one! (I don't know if that is a bad or a good thing) 1) I guess the first one is that despite being gay, I am quite homophobic. Like not in a vicious way, but I just really struggle to identify with other gays. I just can't do it. I find most gay people quite obnoxious, rude and very self centred, thing's that I really can't tolerate in people. They probably say the same about me, but I go out of my way to stay away from most other gay men. 2) I am a very addictive person. Once I get into something, that's it, be prepared to never see me again, whether it be music, tv shows, or just anything in general, if I like it, I'm going to do everything I can to get as much as I can. 3) I can't do normal sex. I'm going to be honest, and frank about this one. I can't do it. It's a mix of it just not being my thing, finding it boring, and the simple...

Day 24- Something that you miss. Ahh, this is a sad one. Honestly, something I really miss is summer holidays. I miss wasting the first week by lying in bed the whole time, just getting up to eat, pee and to put another dvd in the player. Then, really going the whole hog, doing everything possible. In the summer holiday's, I used to see my best friend Rachel pretty much every day. We would walk her dog Mungo, make silly video's, eat the most strangest of things, and have a bloody good time without having to worry about working, or homework, or even what time I had to be home for. Every now and again, I go onto Youtube, just to watch some of the ridiculous videos we used to make. Honestly, if anyone saw them now, they would think we had serious problems. That was some of the best times, were down peartree green, or eating the most greasiest spring rolls in my garden, just really silly little things like that. And then unfortunatly, we grew up, and now we don't even get six...

Bloody hell. I have no idea how I am going to manage to get through tonight. I set my alarm for three o'clock, so that when I got into be at nearly 8, I was going to have seven hours. I needed a good sleep, my feet and legs were aching something chronic. At quater past 10, I was rudely awoken by next door's dog barking. After lying there for an hour or so, I managed to drift off, only to be awoken a bit later on by the said next door neighbour, drilling a massive hole through a brick wall. I slammed the window shut, but still couldn't sleep. So I ended up, just lying there, sort of passing in and out of dozing. I gave up on that, and got ready. I had to go pay my credit card at the bank, and then get some bit's in town, and treated myself to a burrito. Now I'm sat at work, really struggling to keep my eyes open. It's a boring night too. I've done all the moves and bits already, so now it's just tidying and standards all night. Oh god oh god oh god. Still...

Day 22- Your morning routine. My morning routine? It's fairly simple really. My alarm goes off, I usually snooze it a couple of times, I then sort myself out (Yes like that). Then I get up, have a shower, clean my teeth (Because I don't eat first thing in the morning). I then get dressed, have a glass of water, and then leave for work. I tend to do thing's like washing my face and moisterizing either in the evening, or I have a big moisterizing session on my day off. That way I can have a nice relaxing bath, read a book, and have a glass of prosecco :D That was a nice easy one. I'm back at work, tonight sorting sale into trousers and tops, while size tidying it. Yes it as exciting as it sounds. The I have to tidy essentials and fit all the jogging bottoms in, and then to put out all the new Collette collection. Then it's just tidying, and repro to finish the night. No pressure then!

Day 21-Your Zodiac or horoscope and if you think it fits you. I'm a Gemini, but aside from that I have no idea. I'm going to Google what being a Gemini is and we shall go from there. http://www.astrology.com/article/zodiac-signs-gemini-sun-sign.html Here we go. So apparently: Gemini's love to talk, but not idle chatter. Okay so this one is pretty close. I love to talk about issues, new things, new experiences, but I can't be doing with boring pleasantries and what not. 1/1 Gemini's are intellectually inclined. Yes okay this one too. While I am not much of an academic, I love searching for new and interesting information. Quite often late at night I'm sat on my bed with my laptop going through hundreds of Wikipedia pages about anything and everything, trying to remember as much as I can. 2/2 Gemini's have a surplus of imagination. Now we are talking. My mind races faster than the wind, and trying to keep up with it is near impossible. I think that...

Day 20- Put your iPod on shuffle and write the first 3 songs that play and what your thought is. Well this should be a nice on to do. Okay so the first song that played is Something, by Dutch band Lasgo. I'd never actually heard this song, til I was round Sarah's one night, probably before a night out, so we were no doubt stuffing our faces with Chinese food and drinking, while having a gossip fest. It was playing on clubland tv (A channel I usually try my best to avoid) and instantly I fell in love with the song. It's got this proper good, sort of synth accent running the whole way through it, and it's bloody catchy. It's got such a good baseline it's brilliant for a night shift, blaring it loudly over my speakers. Next up we have Fame by Irene Cara. I am stretching and putting my leg warmer's on as we speak. A relative newcomer to my itunes, it's a bloody catchy song, and it's so hard not to scream the lyric's while you do a handstand/back ...

Hello, good evening, I hope everyone is well. Me and mum survived a trip to Salisbury together today, and I didn't even try to leave her there! More from me, after the post. Day 19- Five fears that you have. 1) That I will never earn enough money to be able to live well. For me, I want to own my own home, that is one of my man goals. But I really worry whether I will actually be able to do it by myself. I don't want to rent, and unless I'm with someone, I don't want to be buying with someone I don't really know. I just need my own space, somewhere I can breathe, I can be creative, I don't have to let silly thing's worry me, and I can have a good time. 2)That I will be stuck at work forever. I think that's a fear many people have. I have nothing against working, in fact I love to work, and I love that I feel needed while I am there, but I just can't deal with the constant crap there, and I need to be somewhere that treats it's employees with r...

So I survived my week of horrendous night-shifts, but more on that after today's post. Day 18- Your favourite colour and why. Now this is a difficult one. I like a lot of colours, and I couldn't really tell you why. I suppose it's something to do with the way our brain's perceive colour, and how we emotionally react to them. For me, black is one of my favourite colours. It's bold, clean, safe, and above all, a very comfortable colour. There are some colours I would love to wear, but am not able to, but mixed with black they look really good, and I feel able to wear them. I also love rich opulent purples, electric blue, most green colours, absolutely adore plum, if only I could have more plum coloured stuff in my wardrobe. I love plum, it's just a bit more edgy than black, and it has a real contrast with my pale skin which I really like. I like grey, but only as a small break between big colour's, or as accent's on dark coloured clothing. That was ...

Day 17- A quote you try to live by. The quote I try to live by, "Is try everything once". There is so much to experience in this world, it really bug's me when people don't want to try new things. Fair enough, there will always be something that will push your limit's too far, and that's okay, but 99% of the time, you have to try it. You never know, you might enjoy it a lot. I never thought I would enjoy night shifts, I remember my manager Jennie asking me to do one once, and I was really apprehensive about it, but by god did I catch the bug. I now prefer working night's to days, and I enjoy them (most of the time) Same as when I first met James. We went to pitcher and piano for dinner and some drinks. I was really not impressed. We had been chatting for a while, and I didn't think much of him, but gave him the benefit of the doubt. The date was okay, a bit awkward in places. Then he messaged me saying he had really enjoyed himself. We chatted for a...

Hi everyone, Sorry it's a bit late, I've had two simply horrendous night shift's in a row, and I had just had enough of everything for a little bit. More from me, after the post. Day 16- Bullet your entire day. I'll do last night's shift, while the horror's of it are still fresh in my mind. So I started at six, and was wearing uniform, like I was told to. Apparently, people in plain clothes send out the wrong message when they are working with the store still open. So I was told to wear uniform while we are open. But oddly, nobody else was told this, so Kate and the people in on home ware were in civvies. Funny that. But anyway, we started by taking all the casual clothes off the counter's of the front part of per una. Masses and masses of the damn things. Then we moved the counter's about, to create a trendzone at the front, tall spaces for the jumpsuit's, all the while separating black from navy, and duck egg from red. That wasn't too bad....

Day 15- Three pet peeves. OOOOHHHHH. Now where do we start! It's hard to limit myself to just three, but here we go. The first, is when people are so English centric, it is stupid. I told somebody at work about the Returned last week, and they were really interested until I mentioned it was in French, but it was subtitled. "Oh I won't bother then. I can't be bothered to read the whole way through. Is there an English dubbed version?" "No, but the subtitles arn't too fast, and it's a well told story, so they are just to fill any gaps really" "Nahh, mind you if it's French it's probably bloody pretentious" Seething didn't even come close to it. But it's the same for a lot of thing's. Because it isn't in English, people don't give a damn, and it blimming winds me up. There is so much else out there, music, literature, even film wise, and you are missing out on so much! The second, is the people that are e...

Day 14- Your life in seven years. Seven years is a long time if you think about it, a lot can change, and a lot can happen. So in seven year's, I will be 28. I will have had seven birthday's, 84 payday's, thousand's of drinks, million's of breaths, maybe a billion heartbeat's, quite a scary thought really! In seven year's I would like to be in a great job, doing something I love, whether it be as a writer, a television presenter, heck even a designer of some sort. In seven year's I hope to have my own house, somewhere where I can have friend's around to stay the night, room for ridiculous idea's and adventures, a giant bathtub, and a disco floor in the kitchen for parties. But also I hope to be settling down at that point, planning a wedding, and thinking about maybe having children. (That is a huge maybe though) I want to have been to some amazing place's, and hopefully will have somewhere nice planned to go to. I want to have tried many ...

Hello everyone! Sorry I'm a tad late, but I got distracted looking at some nice new underwear! More from me, after today's blog post. Day 13- Your commute to work and from work Ooh now this is a nice easy one. Basically I live in Woolston, and like virtually all other Woolstonian's, we all work in Southampton city centre. I always catch a bus from the bridge link road station, and I have a plethora of possible buses to catch. There's the 6, the 11, the 3, the X4 and the X5. Usually it's either the 11 or the 3 because the are the most frequent, but it can be any of them. The bus goes over the Itchen bridge, and while we are there, I either look out the window at all the ship's in the docks, or if it's dark then I play on the coin dozer game on my phone. Normally I sit by myself, but quite often there's someone I know on the bus, so I sit with them and have a good old chat. All the buses except the 11 go through Ocean village. Someone always gets on out...

Good afternoon. I'm in a moment of calm, so I thought I might as well do a quick blog post, more from me, after  today's challenge. Day 11- Two word's/phrase's that make you laugh Well first off, my most favourite phrase is "Not my circus, not my monkey" was something a lady I used to work with said all the time. She first said it to me (in polish) when a manager came and asked us both to tidy the footwear section. When she told me what it meant, I spent most of the half an hour tidying shoes in absolute hysteric's, and it's a phrase I try and use all the time if I can. I word I love is the word plunge, and anything that rhymes with it. It has such a beautiful quality, and it really roll off the tongue well. To be honest, I love words that really exercise your mouth and have two big sound's in them. moist is another one, as is broken, and also humming. Simple pleasures! But it's been a rather crazy day today. I saw James last night, and ...

Good evening/morning, wherever you are. Today's blog post comes with a mix of pleasure (Kate Bush's Running up that Hill is playing) and pain (I managed to slice my finger open on a coat hanger, and I have no idea how). So lets see how this goes. Day 11-Your current relationship, if single discuss that too. Well a question like this was inevitable wasn't it. And if I am brutally honest, I have no idea. I havn't yet had the formal question asked yet, and it is avoided when I do try to bring it up. I've known James for about 18 months now, and we have done a lot of thing's together, but we've never had a picture taken together, he only holds my hand when we are alone. I don't even have his wifi password, although that bit isn't really important. I never know if I am coming or going. He kinds of hint's at thing's, like he sort of offered me a room at his new place when he moves in, but it was like a by the by comment, I didn't understand ...

Day 10- A fruit you dislike and why. Pineapples. They are absolutely disgusting. They are so sickly sweet, and they leave a weird after taste in your mouth. I hate the look, the feel and the smell of them. The only time I can even have them near me is when they are in a sweet and sour sauce, but even then I have to pick them out and discard them away from my plate. I honestly hate them with a passion. I remember someone making me a pineapple and mango cocktail once, and I couldn't drink it. Not even the copious amount's of rum could make me keep the drink. Now that you all know about my passionate hate for pineapple, I feel it's time to move on, and celebrate 10 day's of consecutive blogging. I am bloody proud of myself, even though some are quite short, other's really random, I'm enjoying it so far! I'm running a bit late for work so only a short one today, but I'm off tomorrow night, and I'm sure we shall have lot's to talk about then :)

Well here I am on the night shift again, are you even surprised anymore? More from me, after today's writing challenge. Day 9- Your feeling's on ageism. To me, as a young person, I feel ageism is a very real and difficult obstacle to overcome. Especially in the field of working. When you are young, you have no experience, but because you have no experience, nowhere is willing to give you a try. You understand my fustration's? It's much easier to give the job to someone older, who has experience and will do thing's a certain way, but usually, you need fresh eye's, and fresh talent involved, but most companies and institution's are reluctant to hire young people. Whether it is just a lack of experience, or whether they really do believe us all to be lambrini drinking yob's, or even if it's just at the end of the day, they don't want our mum's becoming involved in thing's, I simply don't know. Ageism is worse this end, because there i...

Good morning! (Or afternoon, I'm not really sure what is what any more!) Day 8- A book you love, and one you didn't. Gosh now this is a difficult one, I love books, and picking out one is impossible. One book I have read many times, and thoroughly enjoy each time, is The Time Traveller's Wife, by Audrey Niffenegger. It is an absolutely beautiful book. In case anyone hasn't read it, I won't go into details, but you really get a feel for one of the main characters, Claire. While her husband is disappearing and reappearing at random intervals, she is left to cope and make sure her world, and their daughter's, remains stable. It's a heart wrenching book, it really is, and it is written is such a caring, yet brutal style, you don't know whether you are coming or going, and neither do the characters. A book I really didn't like was the last Harry Potter book. Actually make that the last two. The series was so strong up to that point, it was inevitable...

Good evening, I hope everyone is doing okay. Here's day 7, and I'll have a wee chat with you afterwards. Day 7- What tattoo's you have and if they have meaning. Believe it or not, I don't actually have any tattoo's, although I would like a little token one somewhere. Something, a little bit kooky, a bit different, something a bit odd. I guess I had better start thinking of a design then! Although not a tattoo, but a permanent mark, I do have a scar on my forehead from when I was about twelve, thirteen, from a rope swing. My granddad had tied a big chunk of wood to a tree branch at the bottom of the garden, and we all used to swing on it like over excited chimps. In fact, I think it's still there. But my cousin's were on it, and one of them swung it, and it smacked me right in the forehead. Two inches lower, and I would have been blinded in one eye. I remember the blood spurting out my head, and my aunt rushing me up to the house. Needless to say, I had a...

Day 6-Someone who fascinates you and why. Now this is an interesting question, there are many people that fascinate me, like notable people, Yulia Tymoshenko, Barack Obama, even Lenin. There are celebrities, Like Nicola Robert's, Sofiya Rotaru, and even people close to me, Like my mum, My friend Sarah, and Doreen from work. But someone who really fascinates me is myself. Now this must sound very big headed, but I think we can all agree. We (ourselves) are the most fascinating people, because we know so much about ourselves, yet we know so little. We all have those moment's when we do thing's, and have no idea why. We like thing's without any reason why, and we find thing's scary for no apparent reason. Take me for example. I grew up in a working class family, my parent's working in low income jobs to give us a small but nice house to live in. We did normal thing's, like watch tv on a Saturday morning before visiting my grandparents, we went out for day...