Do i need hot stuff?

Well hello, i'm back again! i'm making a conscious effort to try to keep up with all my obligations this year, and in case you are wondering, i'm listening to hot stuff by Donna Summer, which gave me the inspiration to write this blog post.

I know i bang on a lot about searching for a man and love, but i think i had a bit of an epiphany while i was at  a friends birthday do a couple of days ago. You see, ive spent so much time and effort searching for a man, when in all fairness, i don't actually need one. Ive always thought that i do need someone to look after me, particularly when i have those moments of depression and madness. But i don't. I think that i spent so much time searching for him, that i have lost track of myself. Dont get me wrong, if he found me then i would go out, but i'm not actively looking for the time being (although i do find myself checking my dating profiles fairly frequently) i want to spend this time to carve out my future without any distraction, i really want to be a writer, either as in novels, or dramas, or possibly a journalist.

In an ideal world i could just send snippets off to people and i would be thrust into the limelight, but we all know thats not how it works, as much as i wish it would.

and in case you were wondering, yes i did get my hair done last week, its been dyed a warm dark brown, with a new side fringe put in, i really like it, and i am going to take good care of it now ive got it in better condition.

i also think my bedroom needs a good tidy as well,it seems such a shame that it is always such a mess, but i seem to function better with it like that, i'm not sure if its just me, or if other people feel like that as well.

i think that shall be my main focus for the day i think, i shall see you all later, wish me luck!
xoxo