Night Shift
Well hello everyone.
I must apologize for being away so long, ive just been going through a real tough patch at the moment, and ive lost all appetite for pretty much anything and everything.
I guess i should start with saying that yes i am on a night shift (otherwise why else would i be awake and on the computer at this time of night) We are literally ripping hoisery out, shifting shoes up, moving handbags round to the corner, stretching accesories out while forcing Hoisery into a much smaller gap. Its definatly an ambitious idea, and considering we are half way through the shift and we have only just started laying footwear out is rather ominous. Sarah and Simon are halfway though handbags, and are then moving onto accesories and tidying everything else. Me and Roz are tackling the beast that is footwear. with 5 brands of footwear, as well as wider fit styles and leather products, its fair to say its been hard work so far. even getting slippers into layout and moving walls turned out to be a tricky task.
My search for love has taken a rather interesting turn. Ive had a few dates recently, not as many as before but a few. But theres one guy ive seen quite a few times. His name is James, and he is a really nice guy. I feel almost surprised at myself finding such a decent man after all ive been though. I almost feel as if i dont deserve one. He took me to a really nice resterant in Salisbury, and we stayed the night in the hotel. Its quite odd because he isn't what i imagined i would feel attracted to. Hes quite a bit smaller than me, and not the swimwear model ive always dreamed about, but i do like him. I know that i wont develpo into anything more though, because he has a lot of what i would call casual sex with a lot of people he knoes, which isn't something i feel completly confortable with. I have tried the whole casual sex thing, but it i find it really hard to enjoy. Also, i have a lot of problems with trust, something that when you are into Bondage and D&S like i am, can leave a scene feeling off, and quite frankly sometimes scary.
Im also exploring more of my kink side, by investigating different things ive never tried or even heard of, one day i might meet the man of my dreams at a fetish party you never know. My latest conquest is trying to aquire a leather Strait Jacket, something that has eluded me up til now. They can be frightfully expensive, but i suppose it will be worth it when i get to know a guy, bring him round to my bedroom and show it too him, just to see his face go WOAH!
I can dream i guess. Dreams are funny things really. They are something we spend so much of our lives thinking about, but we can never achive them. Well its good to have something to aim for, even if it means accomplishing lots of little dreams, to satisfy the need to answer to a big dream. Dreaming big can have its disadvantages though. By not achiving them, it can make you feel so small compared to the rest of the world, hence why instaead of chasing my biggest dreams, im completling lots of little ones, and will do small chucnks to eventually get there.
Im really feeling a craving for some chocolate, This is the problem with night shifts, you crave some horrendous food. I havnt slept very well during the day, so ive already had a burger and fries D: Its doing wonders to my waist line! I brought a watermelon from Asda yesterday, and it is so nice to just carve a big slice off and to eat to my hearts content, its a very guilty but a fufilling treat.
Sarah has dashed over and is being nosy, so im gonna dash. I will be back soon :)
I must apologize for being away so long, ive just been going through a real tough patch at the moment, and ive lost all appetite for pretty much anything and everything.
I guess i should start with saying that yes i am on a night shift (otherwise why else would i be awake and on the computer at this time of night) We are literally ripping hoisery out, shifting shoes up, moving handbags round to the corner, stretching accesories out while forcing Hoisery into a much smaller gap. Its definatly an ambitious idea, and considering we are half way through the shift and we have only just started laying footwear out is rather ominous. Sarah and Simon are halfway though handbags, and are then moving onto accesories and tidying everything else. Me and Roz are tackling the beast that is footwear. with 5 brands of footwear, as well as wider fit styles and leather products, its fair to say its been hard work so far. even getting slippers into layout and moving walls turned out to be a tricky task.
My search for love has taken a rather interesting turn. Ive had a few dates recently, not as many as before but a few. But theres one guy ive seen quite a few times. His name is James, and he is a really nice guy. I feel almost surprised at myself finding such a decent man after all ive been though. I almost feel as if i dont deserve one. He took me to a really nice resterant in Salisbury, and we stayed the night in the hotel. Its quite odd because he isn't what i imagined i would feel attracted to. Hes quite a bit smaller than me, and not the swimwear model ive always dreamed about, but i do like him. I know that i wont develpo into anything more though, because he has a lot of what i would call casual sex with a lot of people he knoes, which isn't something i feel completly confortable with. I have tried the whole casual sex thing, but it i find it really hard to enjoy. Also, i have a lot of problems with trust, something that when you are into Bondage and D&S like i am, can leave a scene feeling off, and quite frankly sometimes scary.
Im also exploring more of my kink side, by investigating different things ive never tried or even heard of, one day i might meet the man of my dreams at a fetish party you never know. My latest conquest is trying to aquire a leather Strait Jacket, something that has eluded me up til now. They can be frightfully expensive, but i suppose it will be worth it when i get to know a guy, bring him round to my bedroom and show it too him, just to see his face go WOAH!
I can dream i guess. Dreams are funny things really. They are something we spend so much of our lives thinking about, but we can never achive them. Well its good to have something to aim for, even if it means accomplishing lots of little dreams, to satisfy the need to answer to a big dream. Dreaming big can have its disadvantages though. By not achiving them, it can make you feel so small compared to the rest of the world, hence why instaead of chasing my biggest dreams, im completling lots of little ones, and will do small chucnks to eventually get there.
Im really feeling a craving for some chocolate, This is the problem with night shifts, you crave some horrendous food. I havnt slept very well during the day, so ive already had a burger and fries D: Its doing wonders to my waist line! I brought a watermelon from Asda yesterday, and it is so nice to just carve a big slice off and to eat to my hearts content, its a very guilty but a fufilling treat.
Sarah has dashed over and is being nosy, so im gonna dash. I will be back soon :)
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