hi guys, so i'm starting to get ready for a party, which i'm really excited about, but kinda nervous about, because i only know like 4 people who are going and my mum is friends with one of them, so if i do anything stupid i'll get in trouble.i'm also working on a some new idea's for videos and stuff. i'm feeling in such a wierd mood, one of my friends, who i really fancy had a bit of a go. he got fraped, and i wrote (what he thinks was a joke) on the status, it was basically that i love him. he was like is this serious and i',m like nooo it's a joke *enter sad fake laugh here**
sometimes i hate being gay. i know i shouldn't say that, but it's really hard work. there is never any gay guys out there, and the three men i really fancy are all strait. and it fucking sucks. i hate being alone, and i hate that there is only a limited amount of guys out there, half of them are insane and the other half are like no thankyou. sometimes i really wish i'd been born female, then i actually would have a slim chance at being happy in life :/

i actually get so jealous when i see people together, i actually just want to A kill them and then B kill myself. i really struggle with life, and i want to be with someone, he dosn't even need to be perfect, i just want to be hugged soemtiems, and told it will all be ok. a hug can make everything ok.

ok so now i really need to get ready, i have to be gone in a hour,a nd i need to just buryt all theses stupid feelings and try to have a good night.
see you all later x

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